So there are lots of things to do in order to prepare for labor and delivery. Makes me wonder what happens when babies make a surprise arrival. Especially with me being such a classic Capricorn, running through checklists and doing dry runs are soothing activities to take part in when waiting for something as life changing as the birth of a child. So we have done the hospital tours, birthing class, installed essential baby items, instituted the phone tree, packed the bag and typed up the birth plan. Now I just have to find my happy place. This is the place my birthing coach wants me to visualize when I'm breathing through my labor pain. The problem is I can't find one to use, which sounds crazy. I've had so many happy moments - graduations, my wedding day, awesome vacations, seeing the first sonogram of Dash, fun birthdays and times with family and friends etc. But for some reason I can't take just one of these many great moments to use to help me work through labor.
I know it is because I'm over thinking it. I want the thought to be perfect. Giving birth to my first child will only happen once and I want the whole experience to be perfect. But it won't be because nothing ever is. I wanted the perfect wedding day and so many things went the other way but I still wouldn't have done anything different because it was awesome and the best wedding experience I could imagine despite the silly things that went wrong. And having Dash will turn out awesome too. Things won't go exactly as planned or maybe they will. But at the end of the day I will be bringing home my little miracle and that is all that counts. I think I just need to sit down and relax (not that I should be doing much else being on bed rest) and just think about the moments that make me happy and focus. I'm already in a pretty happy place in general so really this should not be hard.
The baby will be here any day now. My midwife doesn't want me going past next week because Dash is quite large and my inflamed pelvis is not making things easier. The last three days I have been taking herbal meds and teas to make my contractions stronger and jump start dilation. So we're really just waiting. After 37 weeks, lots of dr. appointments, fun times with registries, weird body changes, crazy dreams, and insane anxieties, in the end, all we have left to do now is wait.
I'm sorry that you have had this pelvic pain. I hope that the rest is doing you good.
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